This last month, I began a self-care health journey… unsure where it was going, unsure if I would even see any change. I had no idea what I was doing. But I knew something had to change….
I had hit rock bottom, I needed a change, I had to be better… I WANTED to be better.
Better wife, better mom, and a just better me! The me I knew was in there, the me I was missing, the old me, the pre-kids me. I knew she was in there somewhere, but over time I had lost myself, in life, in motherhood, in all the things life has caused me to go through.
I made a commitment to myself, to stand up and take control, and get my life back. I decided to take a leap of faith into a product, that I knew was a tool to help me. Now while these products have been amazing, I have also changed so much for not only myself, but my family. We eat better/cleaner, we cut out A LOT of sugar, almost all to be exact, (the kids still get sweet snacks often, I am not a monster) but often we choose fruit over swiss cakes. Fresh veggies over mac and cheese, and I personally have basically cut out all soda, and rarely eat fast food…. as opposed to the at minimum once a week late night Taco Bell runs.
Between these changes, and the products I have helping me, I am completely different person, I am a better mom, a better wife, and a better me!
When I say I hit rock bottom, I mean it. Being a parent was exhausting, and not in a normal kids are all exhausting kinda way; in a I didn’t have enough energy to do much of anything… I told myself every night tomorrow I will do this, this and this… and NONE of it ever happened. I didn’t have enough energy to do anything that I didn’t absolutely HAVE to do with my kids. To be completely transparent, I hated myself for it, I was a stay at home mom now, something I always wanted and it was extremely hard for us to even make possible and here I was not even enjoying it, or even being good at. Honestly, I was probably border line depressed. Not because, I was so unhappy with my life, but because, I was unhappy with myself, and I was in a funk I felt like I couldn’t get out of. Until one day….enough was enough.
I wasn’t being the mom I WANTED to be… I wanted to be the mom I once was. The mom with enough energy to do all the things, both fun and what had to. Don’t get me wrong I still love a good Netflix day/night in bed, I mean let’s be honest that is what I am doing as I write this. But I don’t feel like a prisoner to it, to feeling depressed about it, but not being able to fix it.
I have low blood pressure, low Iron and I am hypoglycemic while all these are small problems, when they where left unattended and not being taken care of, it was a huge factor into how I felt and, in return, who I was and how I was…
I never thought that I, of all people, would be choosing green beans and sweet potatoes over mac and cheese at dinner, but here I am, and I even truly enjoy it.
But, what I enjoy more, is the way I feel, the mom I have been, the wife I have been lately. I have enjoyed getting some of me back, and I know it’s only the beginning… and I still have a way to go, but seeing change, seeing that light at the end of the tunnel where it once was dark…. It’s an amazing thing.
What I think we, as moms, often forget about is self-care. How can we take care of our family if we are not even taking care of ourselves? Your car doesn’t drive with an empty tank, so why would you be able to?
Maybe it’s not your health, maybe its something else but what ever it is that you’re neglecting… don’t. Do it, make time for yourself, and your life.
Your family will thank you, and you deserve to be the best you, that you can be!
With love and coffee,
(& and a little wine…)